I have spent years on the clockand decades working with menwho lived hard lives andwho understood hard times.I have been the young oneand now,I am not so younganymore. What are we working for?Better yet,What are we waiting for? Old men with tanned leather skin, fish from the beac … | Continue reading
Of course, I want more.I want to be more too, as in more than I am nowor more,as in more aware yet,the more I am aware,I want to be more comfortablewith what I know as well as be finewith what I do notor cannot understandbecause, of course,what is a man who knows? If I am […] | Continue reading
I have come a long way “since then,” But then again, we all have, even if we haven’tbecause life still moves,even if we are stagnant or still,the world keeps turning around, like . . .on a regular basisfor free. I stand before you, convicted and equallya changed man, and yet, my … | Continue reading
1) The world really is an amazing place, which does not mean I can always say this with a kind regard.For example, it amazes me how two people can see the exact same thing and walk away with two different conclusions. Ever see this? I remember, although this was long ago and I wa … | Continue reading
My heart beats . . . . . . and here’s why.There is a glow about you,like an archway above your mindand all the angels who singhave claimed to know you all too well,like someone who was placed in our livesfor one specific reason,and eventually revealed throughout the burdens of ti … | Continue reading
1) I know—The things I sayare different from the things you hear.But hey,in the Land of Interpretation,Misunderstanding is king.Or perhaps I should say queen,depending upon the circumstances I was wondering something.Why do you ask questionsif you’re not interested in listeningin … | Continue reading
As I see it,the world moves in pieces,like a chess boardand so,the eyes of the misguidedand the people with stalemate mindswill move from one day to the nextjust to avoid the reminderof being in check. As I see it,the clock moves in intervalsand the moon is heavenly as beautiful, … | Continue reading
Safe to say . . .I can be free now, if I choose to be.Safe to say that I can walk in any directionor cross the streetor find a little caféand strike up a conversationwith some out-of-town personwho never sawThe Empire State Buildinglive and in-person. It has been a while since 14 … | Continue reading
1)March 2024 Yesterday— It was nice to see the city in the sunlight.It was nice to see the hint of spring,which should be here soon,or any day nowand soon enough, the great thaw will take placeand once more,we can feel the warmth on our skinand feel alive. I have to say though,it … | Continue reading
It is closer to the months of summer nowand perhaps we are closer to the sun yet,pieces of us are growing more distant from each other. I can see us now, as we were, a long time agoin a lifetime, far, far away.I can see the past come up in random momentswhere random faces of […] | Continue reading
1) This is to you, who practiced your goodbyesor to you,who rehearsed your lines a thousand times, and yet,you never took a step in the next direction. This is to solidify the fact that we have fallen to standards which are subpar or substandard to our true self. . .and speaking … | Continue reading
Once more . . .We find ourselves here again.And sure,I see how life is cyclical. I can see how things change, or how we go off in different directions,only to bring us back in full-circle. And here we are,looking back in a state, which is all too surrealand all too realistic, but … | Continue reading
What do I know?Well, I know this is from the heart.I know that we are far deeper than the eye can see.I know that we all have a past. We have memories and experiences. We have traumas and battles and scars that are often visible and equally invisible as well.We are far more compl … | Continue reading
I need to go back to the idea we talked about in the beginning. I need to go back to that question I asked in one of my Sunday morning empowerment groups.Do you remember it?If you could go back in time and give your younger self a piece of advice, what age would you pick […] | Continue reading
I might have been “just a kid,” and I might not have known much, but I did know how important it was to laugh or to smile. I knew that it meant the world to me to have a good time or to have a special moment with the people I loved. I knew that […] | Continue reading
What do you know?Or what does anybody know?Anything?If anything, this journal has led me to a few conclusions, which is that I only know so much, and by now, since you have joined me this far, and since you’ve never left me, I’m hoping that we can take this trip a little further. … | Continue reading
You only live once, right?At least, this is what they tell me and as far as I know, no one has ever come back to me from the beyond or said anything of the contrary.I know people say things like, “no regrets,” and yet, I think that our regrets are part of the ride. This […] | Continue reading
Before we move on, I think that now is a good time to talk about the distortions of self.Okay?I want to talk about this and the way this leads to a misunderstanding of who we are. I look back at pictures from when I was young. I think about the challenges I had back them. […] | Continue reading
I wish I could push a button for you. What I mean is, I wish I could push a button and take your problems away. I wish I could make the world a better place.But this is life. This is where we play for keeps. I wish I could help more or say something (anything) […] | Continue reading
A hero of mine is a writer by the name of Robert Fulghum.He does not know me at all. I’m only a fan or a reader, at best.However, in his book, All I Really Need to Know I learned in Kindergarten, Fulghum talks about a game called Hide-And-Seek.He talks about someone being too goo … | Continue reading
I know that we’ve talked about this before but again, with all the classes we take in school and with all the education we go through to prepare for life, whether this is during our mandatory years of grade school until high school, or in college, the most important lessons are n … | Continue reading
I’d like to go back to that idea that I told you about earlier in this journal.I want to go back to that plan I had of what I would like to say to my younger self, I had the chance.The first thing I would say is, “Don’t listen to them!”I understand that when I […] | Continue reading
I know all about pointing fingers.I’ve had a few of them point at me too. I know about being the so-called bad one or what it means to be marked or labeled. And this is more than my fascination with my choice of artwork, which I have on my skin. This is more than an […] | Continue reading
I am famous for what I am about to say, which is I am about to share something that is not typical for a man to share. Or to be tough, none of what I am about to expose allows me to stand any taller or be any stronger when it comes to the scales […] | Continue reading
It was early morning.I knew that this day was about to be different. And I knew why too.None of this was good and all of this was bad bit at the same time, at least I knew that an answer was coming my way.I knew that the combination of my actions the consequences that come […] | Continue reading
I wish I could say that any of this is easy. Then again, I wish I could say that life is easy.But I can’t say that, at least not honestly.I can say that as people, we are really good at making simple things complicated.I can say that as a species, we are excellent at complicating … | Continue reading
I suppose my reason for this entry today is because I don’t like what I see. I don’t like to hear the news about some kid who went missing or who found themselves alone or misunderstood. And I don’t say this as if I am more special or understand anyone at some kind of ultimate [… … | Continue reading
It is a curious thing. I’ll admit to this. Yet, it is a simple thing as well.The way we are, or the people we are attracted to, or the reasons why.I have been asked why people act the way they do. I have been asked why I acted the way I did. And of course, […] | Continue reading
And when things go wrong, I get it. It may seem like things will be this way forever but remember – forever is a really long time.So breathe –And I know that sucks. I know that I hated it when people would tell me this. Breathe. Really? Is that all you got?Just breathe?I am breat … | Continue reading
I am going to ask you to pardon this entry while I allow for some honesty. I suppose no one really breaks down these kind of topics to us when we were kids. At least, I can say this is true for me.No one ever taught me about romance. No one ever told me about […] | Continue reading
Before we go forward with today’s exercise, I have to say that at this point . . .I’m not even sure if this is from me to you anymore. I’m not sure if this is me speaking to you from the heart or if this is me speaking to myself.If anything, at worst, this is […] | Continue reading
Sure, I was just a kid. So, what did I know?I knew plenty.Sometimes I wonder if I knew more back then than I do now.And who knows, maybe I did. Or maybe I had more energy. Maybe it was safer to be more hopeful.or, maybe I was less aware of time and how time runs […] | Continue reading
I am a fan of the discipline, which states that there is nothing in front of us, but air and opportunity. I accept this motto as my own. I have come to the understanding that I have to honor this and keep this sacred, almost like a religious belief.However, and wholeheartedly, I … | Continue reading
The word friend means a lot of things these days. And who knows? Maybe it’s me. This could be true.Or maybe definitions change as time goes by,. Or perhaps words take on new meanings, which is fine. No really, it is.I think that everything we encounter in life will need to be ree … | Continue reading
I need to switch gears for this one. And please, while beliefs may vary and opinions as well, I want this to come from the heart, from me to you. I say this with all of my heart and humbly too because while I may be grown, or so people say; I am still just […] | Continue reading
I am a believer in the saying that if you don’t know, then you can’t know, which is okay. No, really it is.If you don’t know, then you just don’t know and that’s fine. The last thing anyone should do is pretend as if you do know, which only proves them to be false, or […] | Continue reading
No one ever told me that it’s possible to think your way out of trying to be your best. Then again, I suppose a piece of me already knew this. The mind can either be a trap with hooks and snares or if we allow ourselves, we can think our way into being our own […] | Continue reading
Where does the craziness start? When does it all begin? Is it the curiosity that gets to the kid? Is it the angst? Is it the buzz? Is it the stories we hear about the parties that took place over the weekend? Is this the thing that leads us to wish that we were there?Or, […] | Continue reading
I have not come here to preach or teach anyone how to live. I’m not here to say that I know anything more than anyone else. However, my aim is to create a thought or at least some kind of understanding. And it will come. What I mean is that a time will come, and […] | Continue reading
As far as advice is concerned . . .Everyone has advice. And there’s always someone out there who is eager to let you know about theirs.At the same time, when it comes to love or when it comes to your love-life or the struggles we face regarding love, or the lack thereof; or when … | Continue reading
What does it mean to be okay?Or better yet, what does it mean to be okay with all that goes on? Or, wait . . .What has to happen for a switch to take over in the mind?Or what needs to take place for us to come to a realization where we understand that yes, […] | Continue reading
Once more, I should explain that this journal was inspired by a special someone who shared some truths about their story with me. I was asked, “How come nobody ever told me these things?”I don’t know the answer to this. And to be clear, I’m not sure that it is true if someone tri … | Continue reading
I can’t say that I know where this comes from or how this begins. But who is it? Who has the right to say who knows better or who knows best? Is age always the reason why someone knows best?I can understand the difference in education. I can understand why a doctor would know mor … | Continue reading
Perhaps it would be better for us to just speak. Let’s just talk. Okay? I am no smarter or better or anything like that. No, I think it would be better for you and I to talk – just like people do.Okay? There are good things to see in this world. I can promise you […] | Continue reading
Do you want to know what I think?I think you know more than you think you doSo, in answer to the question, what do you know?The truth is you know everything. I remember being told that a smart person knows what they don’t know.I agree. Sometimes, we know too much. Or, we think we … | Continue reading
There are advantages that you have now which will someday become the past. So please pay attention and be advised that this moment is more important than you think. Be mindful of who and where you are. But more, be careful who and what you listen to.Everything about right now is … | Continue reading
I suppose the following pages will be a series of conversations that will remain between us. And that’s fine. My style is to create a written conversation between us. My aim is to offer some insight and perhaps a few suggestions but more, I suppose that my past has allowed me som … | Continue reading
Inspiration comes from different directions. And this journal, well, this was inspired by different people who come from different places. This was inspired by my limited experience with people who shown me little pieces of their life. And for this, I am grateful . . . I do not t … | Continue reading